It's never easy to be in that situation. your OODA loop is on high alert, which is akin to fight or flight, and I've seen some pretty awful things myself, so I totally get your feelings. Remaining calm and organized as best as you can is the goal, but we are humans and seeing firsthand suffering and loss of life does change you a bit. chasing is not going to always be glorious since we know and understand the power of what we are after. its why having first aid lifesaver is a valuable commodity that I think everyone should have. that damage looked at least high end EF3 to EF4 in some isolated spots for sure, and video doesn't really capture the real world. On the ground, I'm sure it was pretty bad. Remember you're hopefully there to enjoy it, document, inform.... but with a real sense of at any moment, this stuff changes lives permanently in some cases and maybe yours to, it's perspective altering.